Last week, Emily introduced this year's 31 Days. She invited all to join in and write about one subject for 31 days. I jumped in on the comment form and told Emily I would love to participate and love to write about surrender... and how hard it is.
Then the enemy came. I'm struggling, deep down struggling. I spent hours trying to make a blog button... and failed. I worked on piecing together thoughts throughout the week and finally came up with an outline. However, I feel as if it is all for naught. I reread and realize that my thoughts are scrambled and mixed up... to the point these same thoughts don't even make sense to me.
Last night, I gave up. I decided I wasn't going to do this. I am bone weary and I opted to lay down rather than fight.
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”
And, then this morning came and a new lesson on surrender. I opened Blogger and started reading. Some of my favorite Bloggers are joining in, sharing life lessons they are learning... including my sister. I am moved by their words on changing the world, rebuilding, spiritual formation and listening.
I'm joining in. Not for anyone else but for me. I have much to learn from these women and I have much to learn from Him.
I am starting by surrendering.