Wednesday, November 10, 2010

a hard question...

So, how many children do you have?

ah.. um... well, 3, I guess....

Seriously?!  What mother can not answer a simple question... how many children do you have?  One would think any mother would know how many mouths she feeds... noses she wipes... bodies she bathes.  A simple answer for a simple question... right?   A simple question, but, not necessarily a simple answer.

If I answered truthfully, I would say I have 7 children... but, sometimes, the truth is harder than a lie.  If I answer truthfully and someone starts counting, they would only see 3 E's... Eric, Emily and Ellen.  Then the harder question comes... where are your other children?

Do I want to explain?  Is it worth it?  What will be their reaction be?  Will I make them uncomfortable?  Do I even go there?  Is it worth sharing my heart to a stranger?... not usually... and so the hard question now has a standard answer...

I have 3 kids!

... not the total truth but not a total lie either.  I do have 3 kids.  I also have 4 more in heaven... for a total of 7 lives that have changed my heart... seven times of hoping and dreaming... seven sets of footprints embedded in my soul.  Four lives I've yet to see and three that I watch daily.  

I think I need a new answer to this question that is really not so hard... 

7 lives for which I am extremely grateful!

** I love to stalk my sister's blog and today I'm joining her as she links in with Jen... join in!
I'm also counting this toward my gratitude challenge with Brenda today!