I'm a restless mess...
I hesitate to post this... sometimes it seems like my tweets, status updates or posts are misunderstood. Not all the time... but a lot... but, since I'm a restless mess, I might as well write about it.
I'm restless. I hate waiting. I don't wait well. I don't even sit still when I'm not waiting for something... thus, when I find myself waiting I become a restless mess. I haven't worn a hole in my floor pacing, nor have I cleaned my entire house {although, that would be a great idea}. Instead, I've sat for a couple of hours wondering and waiting.
Today I pray for two friends. I pray without words. I feel as though my heart is at odds with my mind. I want God's perfect will done... my way. I know it doesn't work that way...it's just what I want in this moment.
I find my heart restless for them... restless for answers and next steps. Restless for peace and joy when I have none to share. Restless for my Jesus to just come restore His Kingdom.
... and, I'm thinking I will probably be a restless mess until He does just that.
