he takes my breath away...

I've been struck lately at how fast time flies..

and how slowly my heart and mind keep the pace.

I look at my children every single day...

but do I really see them?

My heart sees this...

and my mind agrees...

however...

my vision is faulty 

and my perception is skewed

this is the new reality

and I can barely keep up.

so much less the child

and more the man

I say "no" less

and "I don't know"more

less black and white

and a lot more gray

parenting is now about 

heart's issues... heart's cries

I thought this road of parenting

would get easier as we journeyed...

instead...

it's just a different kind of hard

I don't know how to do this...

I only know he takes my breath away